Tuesday, February 11, 2014

On My 31st Day in Manhattan

February 11, 2014

On My 31st Day in Manhattan

On my 31st day in Manhattan, Bastille’s “Pompeii” pumps through my ear buds as the routine of a month settles in.

Let that sink in for a minute: a month. I’ve been here for a month. Some days, it feels like I’ve been here for years.

…Maybe my spirit has… Is that too ethereal? 


Walk to the Trader Joe’s, as I’ve done every Tuesday morning (well, the last three Tuesday mornings).

My right hand in my pocket; I open the door with my left hand. To me, that’s natural; to others, that’s unusual. The man behind me chuckles.

“I see you’re left-handed,” he says.
“Yeah, I am,” I laugh, caught off guard – people don’t usually notice… Or if they do, they don’t mention it.
“It wasn’t hard to miss that one!”

I guess not, I think.

Bastille continues to guide me through the aisles…


On my walk home, I discover a Panera. It’s only a block away from my building! That’ll be my downfall (but I’m totally going to spend a day in there writing this weekend!)…


A few hours later, Bastille walks me to work again.

I’ve gotten pretty good at dodging people on the street, if I do say so myself!

Laughing with coworkers, black tea, chocolate, and a well-loved book about Miss Eyre round out another good night at the theatre…


Walking home, those magnificent city lights strike the night sky.

Tonight, I decide to let the diva Madonna sing me home.

I round the corner at Port Authority.

A Drag Queen Diva; mocha skin, peach lips, sparkling emerald green eye shadow, and long curling nails to match.

            She spits just a few feet in front of me before taking a long drag from a cigarette.

                        I smirk as “Material Girl” plays in my headphones.

                                    How fitting.

Eight blocks down, the Empire State Building glows a bright red; a beacon for St. Valentine… 

Saturday, February 1, 2014

On My 21st Day in Manhattan

** An entry from yesterday... **
January 31, 2014

On My 21st Day in Manhattan

My day doesn’t officially start until 4 o’clock in the afternoon today – life of the theatre, right?

Heading North – unlike everybody else, heading South.
           
            A fish swimming upstream…

I guess all the 9-to-5ers are finishing their days by now.

4:15pm… The dark, hooded man who always passes out flyers with a snap,
                                                                                                                        Snap,
                                                                                                                                Snap
                                                                                                                        is extra zealous today.
            Every day, without fail – snap,
                                                            Snap,
                                                                    Snap!
                        Always staring at the street straight ahead… never looking at the passersby.
                                   
                                    One day, I’ll take a flyer from him – just to see what he does…

4:40pm… I watch blue sheets tumble round and round at the Laundromat.

            They’ll be spread on a KING-SIZE bed on the stage in 2 hours.

Time passes.

                        19 minutes left.

A slender woman wearing headphones opens a running dryer.

“Wait, wait, wait!”
A young man, who is CLEARLY ready for the Super Bowl
–goBroncos! –
runs over.
“OH, sorry!”
“Oh, that’s okay.”
“You got 2 minutes left!”
“You can have it when I’m done.”

            Laughs all around.

                        That was nice…
           
15 minutes left.

And I’m craving a burrito… Maybe I can run over to Chipotle before call…

Time passes.

                        5 minutes left.

A laughing Hispanic family folds sheets of their own as my butt freezes on the cold tiled ledge.

                        TIME’S UP!

Laundry in the bag.

            Stomping out in the cold again.

                        No time for a burrito. Damn.

                                    Maybe tomorrow…

It’s a good show tonight! Lots of hoots and hollers! Good Friday audience.

Fun night out afterwards with a friend from summer rep.

It was one of those classic moments when the theatre world becomes so small.

            HSRT @ NYC!! (Flip my non-existent hair.)

Double performance day tomorrow.

            I’ll get a burrito on my dinner break… Mmm…

           
                                                           

           
                                                           


Friday, January 24, 2014

On My 11th Day in Manhattan

** As a prelude to this post: I am adjusting quite well to the hustle and bustle of life in New York City - and I've only been here for two weeks!!! It's amazing. I've met brilliant and wonderful people, and I am having so much fun in my internship. More posts about my adventures in the city are to come, but I thought I'd post this little story I wrote on Tuesday: the city had itself a little snow storm the night before, and that day I walked to work in a snow globe! **
_________________________________________________________________________________

January 21, 2014

On My 11th Day in Manhattan

It is astonishing how a layer of snow can quiet this city.

It was just noon; hunched shoulders, peeping eyes, and out-turned umbrellas replaced the loud bustle of shouts, laughter, and honking that I had so quickly grown fond of. 

But the quiet brought upon something else: awareness.

Not alertness – that “street smartness” my family keeps reminding me about over the phone.

No. It was awareness of the stories behind the focused faces of the street stompers.

I, myself, have been so focused stomping the street that I forgot to look up.

But in the quiet, I listened. In the quiet, I looked.

Of course, I can’t stop everybody on the streets and ask them about their lives – I’m not the HONY guy (although I do really want to meet him!).

So I make up their stories.

On my 11th day in Manhattan, these are the people that struck me as brilliantly interesting:

The tall, lean man with dark chocolaty skin who seems to glide over the snow. Monochromatic; from his coat to his bag to his umbrella. He has an air of elegance and majesty about him, even though he doesn’t seem to sit in the lap of luxury. His face screams quiet determination and pride, but not arrogance. Perhaps he is in the arts, perhaps business, perhaps medicine; whichever craft he calls his own, he excels in it. Colleagues commend him, family members revere him, but he takes every compliment with grace and humility.

White fur coat, leather legging, heeled boots, bright red lips, dyed blonde hair (straight bangs), chunky sunglasses and a matching purse. Fashion District woman. Or maybe she was once a Fashion District hopeful. There was something about this 40-something that was slightly off – like she was trying too hard to be fashion forward. Perhaps it would be better to say the “forward fashion” of another time period. A hopeful among so many hopefuls. A woman who settled here at a young age and just had to stay. Just had to make it somehow. And now she’s trudging through the snow in heeled boots (which is freakishly difficult, by the way – so I commend her for that!).

The greasy young man sitting on a high stool in the window of his flashy, touristy, (probably) knock-off brand shop; his face wrapped in a tatty scarf, gloved hands cross under his armpits, only his eyes peeping out (even though he’s indoors). Staring at anyone who would stare back (myself included). Lurking. Waiting for someone to come in and buy “everything $9.99!” As I broke his piercing gaze, I thought, “He probably hates his job.”

Two men arguing outside Port Authority on the corner of 42nd and 8th Ave. One with a snowy bike helmet, the other with a street salter. A bike that was allegedly chained to a post was toppled over and covered in snow. Bike Helmet apparently thought that Street Salter did it. Now Bike Helmet had to bike to work with a wet ass. Street Salter was just doing his job – he “didn’t touch shit.” Everybody’s gotta work, right? (They were the loudest ones on the street today).

When I realized I was looking at other people, I looked down at myself – covered in fluffy snow, a skip in my step, and a goofy smile on my face (which I had to repeatedly frown away -- nobody smiles when their stomping the streets of NYC). What would people think of me? Is it obvious that I’m new? Do I actually blend in? Do I look like I’m going places, that I’m living a dream come true?

Who knows? But who cares?

As I shook off the snow inside the stage door, I had a little epiphany.

Looking is just as important as listening. It’s the start. To know someone is to truly see someone for whom they are – to understand, to accept, to care. But you must genuinely see before you can genuinely listen; see without judgment, stereotype, or assumption. It’s a very James Cameron’s Avatar epiphany – but hey, those blue people knew a thing or two about living well.

On my 11th day in Manhattan, I hugged my fellow production assistant – and newest friend – with more fervor than I did on my 10th day.

On my 11th day in Manhattan, the great big Mecca-city with a million faces turned into a tiny little snow globe.


On my 11th day in Manhattan, it felt like home.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Rush, Discovery, and Anticipation: A Manifesto for the Theatre

**As a final project for my Directing class this semester, we were given the assignment to write a Manifesto for the theatre. The prompt was riddled with questions like "Why is theatre important? Why do you do theatre? Why should theatre be seen?" It is a broad topic with many answers - and tons of theatre artists are constantly discussing it. But on a personal level, this essay was a great exercise in articulating the reasons why I do theatre - why I think it's important. And the assignment came at the perfect time - right before I make my journey east to New York City to explore the world of theatre... This is a document that I will come back to in a year or two - most definitely to revise. After all, my perception of the world always evolves with the more things I see. But here it is for now! Enjoy, and feel free to respond with your own thoughts!**
***
            Before I even put words to this page, I looked back at a handful of other pieces I had written about my musings on the theatre. They were mostly comprised of old blog posts from the blog I started the summer before my sophomore year. I intended to see if I could use sections from a few of them to comprise this manifesto; after all, how much could my thoughts and beliefs about the theatre change in a year and a half? A lot, apparently. The only adjectives I could think when reading my past self was naïve and idealistic. I had written about the rehearsal and performance processes in vague terms – commending the fantastic work the cast and crew was doing on each of the productions and praising the beauty of the production process. But there was no real depth. I avoided the difficult parts of the production process, or if I acknowledge them, I tried to justify the hardship by saying, “we love theatre!”
            So, okay, we love theatre, yes. That’s why we do it. But really why? Why does theatre matter? Why can two people instantly bond when they discover the other is in the theatre? Why do theatre artists keep going back to the exhaustion and stress of tech week, the pressure of tightening deadlines, the frustration at the stack of line notes at the end of the night, or the impulse to tear your hair out if that one scene isn’t perfect yet?
            Every theatre artist has his or her own answers to those questions; but for me, it is the end result: the performance. So I’ll write my manifesto backwards, in a sense – from the performance to the first meeting with the director.
            Theatre is a rush. Backstage, before “Places!”, everyone is in jitters – actors and technicians alike. All with one goal in mind: to put on a great show. One that is powerful, one that shocks, one that hits home, one that gets laughs, one that inspires, one that entertains. We all want people to leave the theatre saying, “wow! That was a great show.” But if not – if it offends – we want to encourage people to wonder why (it’s the reason so many new works have talk backs nowadays). Whether the play is purely for shock value or the message is clearly in your face, we are always asking, “What does this play mean? Why is it important?” And there are hundreds of answers; different answers for each play, even. And that’s okay. It gets people to discuss, to wonder, and to share. Theatre is about people – humanity from all spectrums and walks of life. That is what the audience sees. Theatre artists thrive on that moment when they can finally share their humanity with the rest of humanity. In fact, that could be said of anyone – not just theatre artists. Everyone on Earth is trying to express their humanity in their own way.
It just so happens that performance is what gets theatre artists excited to share their humanity. That moment when the lights blackout and a mass hush runs through the audience is priceless. It is in the performance where we get to share all the hard work we’d been doing for the past several weeks; where we get to invite the audience into this story. For two hours or so, time and space outside the theatre is irrelevant. What matters, what is real, are the people on stage – those characters. Whether those characters are people you would aspire to be or people you would never associate with, they are real for that moment – until the final curtain.
            Theatre is discovery. That is what the rehearsal process is all about; discovering who the characters are and how to make the concept of the play’s world real. If theatre is an expression of humanity, then the rehearsal process must determine what makes the characters human and what grounds their world in reality (no matter how surreal the play is). We, as humans, cannot fully wrap our head around a piece of art if we cannot relate it to our humanity in some small way – it’s a natural impulse to try to justify the unknown in terms that are known.
If performance is the why, then rehearsal and production are the how. How do we reach the place we want to be – the emotions, the actions, the moments, the message we want to present with the audience? What is the most effective way to represent the theme through performance and presentation? Will it be more effective to deliver this monologue on the high platform or down center in front of the audience? What happens if we go into the audience? Then there are all the questions we ask ourselves; how the play affects us, as opposed to the audience. What does this play mean? Why are we performing it? What makes it important?
All these questions are asked with a desire for detail; the detail that makes the humanity we represent effective. Less attention to detail, less effective play (even in a minimalistic play – then I think you have to pay more attention to the people right in front of you, as opposed to the elaborate scenic transitions). If we want the audience to share in the experience in a full way (notice I didn’t say positive or negative) then we must focus our energy in the production process to discovery. Discovery calls for an open mind. Coming into a production with a closed mind creates a close-minded play. Theatre artists who begin with open minds create an environment full of possibilities – full of things to discover.
Theatre is anticipation. That first meeting with the director – as an actor, designer, technician, or stage manager – is rife with anticipation. The initial stage of a production can be boiled down to one thing: the vision. What is it? Why that? How do we conceptualize it? The vision is the culmination of What, Why, and How. The vision (the director’s vision at the helm, fed by the visions of all the other members involved) is what drives the production. It is this one pinnacle that we want to share. This is why our work should be shared. The vision of the play is personal, real, and relatable; it breathes life into the words on the page, if you will. Having a vision – a scope, a trajectory – allows the humanity of the play to be realized. And that all begins in the first meetings when the director explains why he or she decided to perform this play at this given moment in time. From there, the play springboards into production with everyone driven by the anticipation of sharing their discoveries with an audience in the rush of the performance! (Was that sentence tacky? Oh, well! I liked it!).
Whether a theatre artist takes on a project that purely entertains or that packs a poignant punch, the characters portrayed in the play are human. The audience is human. The actors, the technicians, the designers, and the director are all human. Theatre is our way of expressing that humanity; sharing it in a way that make us feel important – just as anyone’s passion makes them feel important. And whether an audience member is moved to tears or laughter, pleasure or frustration, we can be comforted in knowing that we shared our humanity with them. Theatre is a witness to the truth of what it means to be human – the good, the bad, and the ugly.
I do theatre – no matter how tame or ludicrous – because I believe in humanity. I believe there is good, bad, and ugly in the world. There are so many people who come from different places, believe in different things, and cope with life in different ways. That is one thing I can say is true. There is so much talk about needing to fix other people – that there are good people and evil people, intelligent people and ignorant people, or right people or wrong people. But I have learned that one person or group of people cannot fix another – it may be possible to change another’s mind, but that is different than fixing someone. And changing a mind takes a lot of courage, understanding, and empathy.
What is important to remember is this: the things a person says or does don’t make them any more or less human than their neighbor. And that truth is seen all over the theatre. Theatre represents the human being trying to belong, to understand, and to live.